Personal Vent.

Please disregard this.. I got nowhere to vent anymore..
Everything feels so messed up between us. I feel so guilty in so many ways. Since when did we become 3? Why did he have to step into the picture? What the hell am I meant to do or feel? I am so inlove with you, there's no going back for me. I know he's your ex, but what's that got to do with anything? I'm your CURRENT BOYFRIEND there's a f*cking difference. Yeah, I get it, I know I'm the one your dumped him for.. I feel guilty enough for homewrecking you guys one way or another. But it's already too late, I've fallen too deep. You've got to make your choice.
It hurts though, knowing that you've been seeing him more often now. You tell me all the things you've done in the past, it aches. I can't sleep at night anymore. I am not sure to what I am meant to do or say to you.. I need you, before you came along, I was some emo f*ck, but you picked me up and showed me the light, but it seems the light is fading.. I'm into pieces.. I'm willing to support you through everything, no matter just how much it kills me. I love you to the point where your happiness is more significant over anything.. But saying that.. I don't know if I can still hold on.. I mean.. I can't imagine you with anybody but me, I can't imagine me with anybody else, I can't imagine me marrying or having a family with anybody else. You are the one for me, I know it. Whenever I imagine you 2 together.. Immediate tears. Why is my life so messed up? Whenever I am happy.. Something has to come a f*ck it up.

Just tell me one thing.. Are you falling for him again because of sympathy? Are you staying with me because of the same reason?

Just be honest with me.. It's easier for me to take in..

I hate to say this, but you need to get your mind right. Either a) she isn't actually the one for you or b) you're being an insecure and emo guy.

If she broke up with another guy to be with you, there's no reason why she wouldn't do that to you as well or possibly be just toying with you to feed her ego.... not trying to diss you or say that this is definitely the case, just some food for thought.




I also think you need to be open with her if this is your genuine train of thought.

I completely agree with Austro here
Seems a bit harsh but it's these things that everyone overlooks when they like someone,

Yeah.. I'm option b. Too much has happened to me. She's made me happy, that's it really. Stuff it, she won't be on today because we're still fighting for this. Imma just cwalk my feelings out.

Good luck dude. And nice idea, I've made some of my best vids when I was emotional haha.